everyday time passes when your not here, i believe that i can make it out there without you. i put a smile on my face to help myself believe everything will be alright. i see couples together in every room i stand in. no matter what i do, everything reminds me of you. it's been a month and two days since you've been gone. im missing you like crazy. there are days where i sit here & cry for you to come back. even though we've been through the things we've been through. i know if we were to get back, it would never make sense. sometimes i wish i could go back to the day i wanted that break & everytime you faught for me, i would kiss you & never let go. you were once mine & i took that for granted. i let my emotions take over & made you prove to me that you truly loved me & wanted me. i regret everything i've done but then again, if i hadn't done that... i wouldn't have known the real you. now i realized that i was wrong for changing you. but baby, i miss every second of the moment we cherished. even from this day, i dont know if i would regret being with you. you were the one who always made me happy. you were the only reason i had a reason to live. without you here now, everything seems like a mess. there are so many things running through my mind. if only i knew the answers to them. i love you baby & i always will. but i need to question myself, is love really enough? yes i know, most of our relationship was based on sex. i was never ready for that yet. but why...why do i feel like even though it was all about sex...i'd accept all that just to have you back? my heart aches secretly everyday...everyday since you've been gone. this is my life & these are my emotions. i can never seem to tell anyone much about our relationship because it was between me & you. i cant trust anyone now. i dont even think i can trust myself. you use to say "baby im nothing without you..i need you" but boo, i think you were talking about me. your everything without me... maybe one day you'll realize im your one & only just like you said .